not sure which one i want right now...please let me explain.see it's this chick,kelli.she's like everything i could ever want in a chick.we shared so many of the same interests and felt the same on so many difference issues.so you're probably thinking,where's the problem?same thing i'm thinking.i think i love her,but i think i love the single life more.or maybe it's that i'm just not ready for commitment.or maybe it's that we talked to much when we first met,so now it's like in overdrive and i'm sick of it before the start.but i try to look from the outside,the hurt i'm causing her.imagine all of a sudden someone very near and dear to you looks for every reason why you shouldn't talk to them,makes up false insecurities and so on and so on.probably very painful and dishearting.but it's exactly what i'm doing to her.so most likely when i'm ready for a relationship,she'll be long gone.but my feelings will have just arrived.oh how bittersweet love can be.
Bee Outtie.
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if she "loves" you;
then she won't be far..
but your insecurities....
is another story.
damn homie... read this *i didn't write it* but the shit is EXACTLY what you're talking about--you have to read it all the way to the end cuz it's so deep... i just read it last night and it's talking about the SAME thing you're talking about (picking every reason NOT to like someone etc.)(the story is called aardvark)
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